i woke up late that's why i had no other choice but to commute going to my work... while i was on my way, i was hoping that he also rendered overtime... luckily, he's here in the office... i'm glad he's here... what really strikes my attention is that he's wearing mah favorite color... the shirt really looks good on him... it seems that he's looking at me again... but as usual, i was pretending that i didn't noticed that he's looking at me... i was really shocked that he also worked until 8pm... and one more thing that really makes me happy is that he talked to me... i'm really happy... i don't know why i keep on thinking about him... i really don't know what's on his mind... well, hopefully he's the one...

 he's back... i don't know exactly why he's absent for two days... but i'm really glad that he's back... i do admit that i missed him...funny thing is that we bumped into each other in the stairs... i was a bit shock when i saw him... i just look at him with shocking reaction... he just looked at me also... no smile at all...

i really don't know what is happening to me... since last year when somebody tease me to him... it just stucked into my mind that he likes me... he greeted me in our last day of work before holidays... he also greeted me in my birthday... by then, i realized a lot of incidents with him and it seems that he do likes me... well, i hope he does...

right now, i'm on the stage of forgetting the other guy and starting to like this new one... but still confused if my instincts are true... well hopefully, i would be able to find out the truth soon... and well, i do hope that he's the ONE that i've been waiting for... still hoping....

 yeah, it's been a while since i blogged... it's been months... and now, im back again... welcome back to myself!!!... why am i back?... well maybe, this is the only way wherein i can express the things that i can't say to the people im close with... 

it's already late @ night and still haven't slept... don't know what's happening to me... it's his birthday but i don't have a chance to greet him... because we are not close, we are not friends... that's the saddest part... when you cannot express to that special someone the thoughts that is within your mind... within your heart... it's really hard... it really breaks my heart... not being able to express the feelings that i had... sometimes, im asking myself... what is wrong with me... why do things like this happens to me... until now, i really don't know the answer... hopefully someday, i would be able to find the answer to that...

i really do hope that he's enjoying his birthday... i'm wishing him all the best in life... happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!!  happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! happy birthday!!! god bless..

 well, it's monday and back to work again... i only slept for about 3 hours... actually, i'm feeling samkinda lazy to go to work... i don't know why i always have this kind of attitude towards work... feeling lazy all the time... maybe because i'm not happy anymore in my carreer...

but then, i still thank God because this Monday is not that stressful... i felt relaxed in my work today... no pressure at all... hope that my work will be always like this...

 today, i'm on vacation leave... the reason is because i had to go to the hospital to have my 4th session of injection... well glad to say that i only have 1 injection today... flashback: 1st session was 4 injections, 2nd session was 4 injections, 3rd session was 3 injections (most painful and expensive injection ever had)... the doctor said that i'm in good condition... thank GOD for guiding me...

tomorrow, i will be back at work... as usual, my most hateful day will be tomorrow because of the very stressful production meeting with the other department...

nothing very important happened today... as usual, just a typical day for me...

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.

Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate.

Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr/Mrs Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won.
Only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It is true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in your God.
Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!